Fronting, Frontin, to Front...

I was in the gym yesterday and I was looking around for a magazine to read. They often do not replenish their magazines so I had already read the entire selection on how to get great abs (don't laugh) in ten days etc. Oh, and Golf Digest is just not my thing although I did acquire an admiration of Golf from my Dad. So my choices were "Home and Garden" or one called the "The New Yorker". Seeing as I do not own my own home I went with the latter.

In it there was an article that caught my eye. It was titled, "Fronting, the word for the day". It was talking about the police officers that were on trial for shooting down a young black man outside of a club on the early morning hours of the day he was going to get married. He was unarmed and shot sixteen times. One of the questions they posed was whether he was "fronting" or not when someone over heard him tell his friends to get his gun.

Definition of fronting: An outward, often feigned, appearance or manner

Okay now you know most of us have used this word or heard kids use it a bit different. We say, "frontin" Can you believe that she said that, she is frontin!

For years I had been "frontin", not letting people see the real me. Not wanting to let people know that I had problems, that I wasn't the greatest parent in the world and that I had struggles in my marriage. That meant exposure! Who wants to be exposed, that's just to painful. That means I would have to go back to move forward. What would people think. But then I meet Jesus! I literally feel at Jesus feet and the facade (a superficial appearance or illusion of something) started to fall. He exposed all of the lies, as rocks are exposed to the elements and start to get smooth, that is the process I am on. That I will always be on...

I can now shout, "I am free"! I am truly free to be who God created me to be! So if you see me crying in church or laying on the alter "exposed", just know that I am not "frontin" any longer.